Saturday, April 30, 2011



adj \ˌrü-bə-ˈnesk\

Definition of RUBENESQUE

: of, relating to, or suggestive of the painter Rubens or his works; especially : plump or rounded usually in a pleasing or attractive way <a Rubenesque figure>
I love Rubenesque women. That doesn't mean I don't like skinny women. Skinnier women can be beautiful too, but for Me there is something about a large breasted, curvy hipped woman, with a little bit of a tummy that drives Me wild. Society's preoccupation with 5 foot 10, ninety-five pound women just confuses me.  Christina Hendricks, Gianna Michaels, Emme, Christine Alt, Sara Stone, Mariah Carey. All beautiful, healthy women that don't fit into society's little box for what is supposedly the way a woman should look. 
I want a woman to have breasts that sway in My face when she is on top.  Hips that I can grab onto when I fuck her hard. An ass that makes a wonderful loud  smack sound when my hand hits it. I have found that a bony butt usually means a sore hand. I want a woman that looks like woman. Not a 12 year old boy. 
When did society lose its mind in deciding that only skinny is beautiful? Jessica Simpson gains a few pounds and its  the cover story on  a dozen magazines, and the lead item on half a dozen tv shows. Kirstie Alley wears a bikini on Oprah and its a major media event. To Me  there is nothing as erotic and desirable as a  rubenesque woman who is confident in how she looks and comfortable with her body.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


Power. It's what turns Me on. Not abusive power, but the power to be in control of a situation.  The power to cause reactions in another person.Sounds scary I am sure, but let Me elaborate.

Reactions.  Sighs, moans, shudders, whimpers, joy, orgasm, fear, anger, jealousy,  pain, pleasure, and all the other reactions that a person can have to whatever is going on around them, or happen to them fascinate Me. I would never go out and purposefully scare someone that I didn't know, or hit some stranger to cause true pain.Still seeing someone react peaks My interest. This is especially true of whomever I might be with  in a relationship , or play wise.

Knowing that I have the power and the control over them to cause the myriad of reactions they can undergo is very erotic to Me. The fear in a subs eyes when they see I take out the paddle or the cane. Yes they might love the pain they know is coming. Even crave it. Yet there is still that little bit of fear and uncertainty. The soft sighs and the goosebumps when I kiss the inside of her elbow, or the back of her knee. The moans, screams, and quivering when she orgasms from My tongue. The power to co cause those reactions in her. the power to control when she has those reactions. The power to control how strong those reactions will be through My manipulations. Even anger and jealousy. Now not swinging your fists anger, or smashing your car windshield jealousy. I mean the anger I hear in her voice when I have brought her to the edge of release a half dozen times and again not allowed her to orgasm. The cussing and swearing. The begging and pleading. Hearing the anger in her voice. Hearing the need, the desire, the craving. The feeling that  I get from causing these kinds of reactions is exhilarating. Causing an intense, body shaking, sheet clenching, wake the neighbors orgasm in the one I am with at times can be intensely more pleasurable than my own reaching release.

Jealousy is a special reaction. I don't particularly like causing the reaction of jealousy, but I do find the emotion itself fascinating.  I played with a young lady awhile ago that had her little green monster. When she first experienced it in regards to me I think she was surprised by it. W/we  weren't in a relationship. Just playing a bit at that point, but the attentions I showed to another young lady ( and the flirtation toward me of the other young lady) brought out her little green monster. I found her reaction to her own reaction to be as fascinating as the jealousy itself. She worked through it and came to a better understanding of it,  but it was still there.

Because of this My likes and dislikes run the spectrum. I am a sadist yes, but I also like the non pain. Rough, smooth, hard, soft, loud, quiet, hot, cold, fast, slow. If I am to cause and control the reactions that I desire, and through this bring about the reactions in Myself that I crave, I must use  all of these and more.

Monday, April 25, 2011

A little tidbit

I was given  some amazing compliments over the weekend . A friend told me I was her hero. The second was  a young lady I cyber with informed me that I was better than porn *chuckles*


Sunday, April 24, 2011

The power of words

 I realize in My posts that for much of the time I will have the Dom being a male role and the submissive being female. I mean no disrespect to any who have  differing genders for those roles. I simply do so as that is how the thoughts in my head are constructed. Since this is my first post I figured I would tack on this disclaimer.

I was looking over this post here A Kind Dom , and after I had replied to it I wandered the house for awhile thinking. My mother had once told Me a story about My grandfather. She said he had never spanked any of his children. She told me that if she manifested inappropriate behaviour all he had to do was utter one phrase and it would bring her to tears.

"I'm disappointed in you"

In My reply to the post I had read I spoke of  a punishment inflicted on a subbie by her Dom. Not physical punishment , but just as strong and effective. I pondered what effect those four words could have. Now I also thought about the phrase "you have displeased Me". I compared the two. I could see the strength in the second phrase. I could see it being used by a Dom when His subbie didn't get her chores done, or didn't perform a task exactly as instructed. A way of saying you have been a bad girl.

Then I went back to the first phrase. I repeated it several times in My head. Next I repeated it out loud several times. Now when I said "I am displeased with you" I could say it calmly with an even tone. When I said "I'm disappointed in you" I could hear  My voice change. I could hear the sadness in My voice. I had no intention of adding that kind of emotion to the words. It just flowed.  Where I could see the strength of the words in " I am displeased with you" I could feel the power of "I am disappointed in you" to My core.

This led Me to wonder what effect would those words have on a subbie. Hearing those words from her Dom as she knelt at His feet. Hearing that utter sadness in His voice. I have not had a lot of experience with subs, but the few I have spent time with all had a desire to do everything they could to please and not let their Dom down.To strive to live up to the expectations of their Dom. I recently had a friend who takes medication for being Bi-polar go into a deep depressive mood swing because she ran out of her medicine and failed to get the prescription refilled. I stayed on the phone with her. Talked her through getting dressed and going to the pharmacy. I spoke to the pharmacist when she needed Me to.  She isn't overly submissive, but at that moment i could tell she needed to be Dom'ed. I took charge of the situation and resolved it. The next day she texted me to let me know about the price of her prescription at a different pharmacy. A task I had given her. I told her she did good. Now I told you that story to tell you this part. Her response to being told she had done well was to reply " I don't want to let you down".

My question to any subs who might read this is what impact would hearing those words, or what impact did hearing those words have on you if/when your Dom said them. How would you feel, or how have you felt.  For any Dom's that might read this, and have ever uttered those words how did Your sub react.

For both sides do Y/you feel that those 4 words "I'm disappointed in you" carry more weight when they are spoken than any of the other phrases Y/you have spoken , or heard? What emotional impact do Y/you think they carry with them? I have My own opinions, but would welcome hearing the opinions of others

One note. I  in My pondering of phrases did not include "I'm not proud of you." Personally I could never see Myself not being proud of the person I have chosen to claim as My own. so those words I pushed to the wayside and did not include  for this post.